I'm back to square 1.

School is great and distracting, but my mind still wonders.

I figure that if I write down what's on my mind right now, I can actually finish these two very simple papers.

I want to be outside in the sun laying in the flowers and grass with you.

I want to be eating a Popsicle on the beach.

I want to be on the beach playing volleyball with my best friends.

I want to be swimming in the ocean in Maui with the sea turtles.

I want to stick my nose into a good novel.

I want to daydream all day with my dog.

I want to eat shaved ice.

I want to ride a vespa in Italy.

I want to swim in the Mediterranean.

I want to be a few inches taller so I can touch the ground right now.

I want to be tenderly kissed on my lips.

I want my heart to race.

I want to go white water rapid rafting.

I want to go rock climbing.

I want to be at a rock concert.

I want to get hold your hand.

I want to fall asleep in your arms.

I will write this paper now. =]

comin home

what's great about leavin home to live somewhere else is that you can appreciate home more than before. i've taken advantage of many of the things that i've had while living at home, but now that i'm all the way across the nation, i am glad to be coming home.

i'd see people around me all the time in the small town i am currently residing in and i wonder how they got to this random place in the middle of no where. when i first visited this little town i thought "who would ever want to be stuck here?!" i figure these people must have a reason. and they probably do. today i took a shuttle to the airport and there was a driver and a guy "in training." they were two of the most interesting guys i've encountered on a shuttle. the driver was in his 70s and was talking about his life in this little town. as we talked the two both seemed to have had a nice fulfilling life and just ended up back in this town because it's been their home their whole lives. but why did they choose this shuttle job this late in life? why did the younger man in training choose this job in the middle of his life?

i figure the answer is that: we all have our own paths and opportunities come our way at different times. we live life when it's meant to be lived and the things that happen to us in our lives can change the course of our lives. those who make the best of this journey are those who know how to enjoy life and are the most interesting to meet.

i hope to be one of these people. i'd like to enjoy everything i do even though it might not be that great at the time. life is an adventure. live it!

~*Live.Laugh.Love*~

Sunny Days

Today is such a beautiful sunny day! I wish i could be outside enjoying it! Instead, i have to write these papers. But i do have the windows open with the sun flooding the room. There's something about the sun that i only realized when i came to the east coast... it does something to you. it makes you feel better and happier. Maybe i got too much of it at home and that's why i didnt appreciate it as much, but not i realize the affect it has, not only on me, but on everyone around me.

You Are My Sunshine.

Do u ever pass by someone while walking to class or anywhere and they are smiling? not just any smile, but one of those smiles where it seems like they just kissed someone they love, or where the smile is a remanence of something very funny, or maybe it's a smile of just being totally and utterly happy... Well those are the smiles i live for. Whenever i see someone smile so incandescently happy, i can't help but to smile and wonder what they're smiling about. =]

A Smile Is Contagious. Pass It On.

~*Live. Laugh. Love*~

Post-Valentines Day

I realized yesterday that Valentine's Day is really a ridiculous holiday. I mean one day out of the year for love? Must we celebrate love for only one day? It really only makes the single feel unloved and sad and the people who have someone feel obligated to do something for their significant other. It's more like a chore to show's one's affection. How did the idea of Valentine's Day come up anyways?! Being single myself, I felt a bit sad for a moment thinking that no one loves me. But then I realized what a fool I was for thinking that. Sure I didn't get the excitement of receiving a surprise gift or flower from a guy, but I have something better. The love of my family and friends. I called my parents yesterday to wish them a happy Valentine's Day because I would always celebrate the holiday with them. We'd go out to a nice dinner, we'd make dinner together (i'd make a delicious heart-shaped chocolate souffle) or we'd just hang out and go to the beach and just enjoy being alive together. Valentine's Day was just an excuse to do something different and exchange gifts.

Now that I'm in college I don't get to celebrate with my parents like we use to. It's different with my friends because either their bitter about not having a guy or they are doing something with their man. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't somewhat envious of those who have someone to celebrate Valentine's Day with, but whenever I get envious I remind myself I have all the love I need. As nice it would be to cuddle up with someone on V-day, I want to do that on other days. It'd be nice to have someone to run to when the girl hormones just get too much when I'm with my friends. It'd be nice to have someone to hold me. And it'd be nice to just have someone to walk with hand in hand.

But this isn't really something I "need" just something I "want". I'm grateful for what I have now and what I can celebrate everyday. The ups and the downs of love for friends and family.

~*Live.Laugh.Love*~

Ringing in the new year!

Happy New Year!!

A new year and a new start! 2010 is going to be better than 2009 and is going to just overall be a good year. (at least i hope) Good health and Happy memories for 2010!
Starting the New Year off in Laguna Beach with the parents. Watching the Rose Parade like every other year, but this time we have the beautiful ocean in the background. Reminds me of when I was younger. My mom's side of the family and us would always go down to the beach for a week. Right after Christmas we'd stay at a beach house till a couple days past New Years and celebrate on the beach. I miss those days. But that allowed us to have new traditions.

~*Live.Laugh.Love*~

sick rant

It really amazes me that there are things that i would do out of common courtesy for any one of my friends with the flu. Yet it wouldn't even cross their minds to do the same for me. Sure i get words of sympathy and the words "get well soon!" But who needs to be reminded of the same things i already know like how to take care of myself or that they feel sorry and they wish they could do something about it. Do people even think when they say that?! or is it just habit? It'd be nice if people actually meant what they said. If they actually followed through on their promises, or on just what they said, it doesnt have to even be a "promise" no one keeps them anyways!
It hurts to text your mom and say that "I'm fine and I'm being taken care of the best friends in the world here! Don't worry about me!" (well i didnt actually say it in so many words it was more like : I have the best friends ever!) then to find out later that i had no premise on saying that at all. Why did i say that? just cuz i felt better for a second that people were feeling sorry for me? psh that's stupid. So i took those words back. It's surprising that no matter where I go in the country, I still cant seem to find true friends. Oh dont get me wrong, i love my friends, but i feel like that after college, they'll become more of acquaintances more than anything.
sorry i dont have anything good to say.. just not in the mood. maybe some mac and cheese and gilmore girls will help... though i really want fries.. but oh wait.. the dc closed an hour ago and i wasnt invited or even asked if i wanted food earlier! -.-

So weird.. i feel a sense of normality in my life right now. Which i discovered, isn't that great. Normal for me, like back at home, like during middle school - high school, means i can't fully be myself. For the first time since i came to college i feel like i have to be on my toes all the time. It sucks. Always being judged, always worried about what people think, paranoid people will hate me, on top of worrying about classes. The only thing i really had to really worry about last year were my classes, which was good. But now i feel like i can't do things without some people's acceptance or they'll take it the wrong way. Or i cant say things or they might take it the wrong way. I hate the Sophomore Curse! Sophomore year in high school was horrible and never really got better till i came to college. I have a feeling Sophomore year here will be just the same. But what can i do? It's so weird.

on a lighter note here's a little bit from thefuntheory.com
hope you enjoy! =D go to the website for more fun things! it suure brightens up my day!! =]

~*Live.Laugh.Love.*~

P.s. Ugly Betty is sooo good!!! but i'm SOOOO mad at her in the first couple episodes!! but i love it!! =]